Standing at the edge of tomorrow, and its all up to me how far I go

I have started actively looking for a job. Strange how these days that does not require leaving your house or even putting on clothes, and I'll be damned if I wear clothes when it is not required. I spent about a month doing absolutely nothing. That is ok once you have finished 16+ years of school and are about to embark on decades of nonstop work. I still have very little idea about what I want to do. I used to know, but that was then and my interests have shifted. I guess most of what I'm interested in lies in places outside the USA. I like learning about different cultures and studying world history. On my bedside table I have a copy of Edith Hamilton's Mythology and a book about the Berlin wall. I want to go abroad again. I applied to a teaching position in Korea, but of coures everything that sounds good in theory could turn into a nightmare. It could also be one of the best experiences of my life. I suppose even if it turns out to be a nightmare, I'll be happy someday that I lived through it.

I guess it comes down to how willing I am to step out of my comfort zone. Most everyone I know on blogger is abroad at the moment. Wendy is in Korea, Nick in Nepal, Jake in Japan, two people are in China. I just feel kind of stuck, like I want to sit in one of my dad's spare bedrooms and just see the outside world through this computer screen and watch british television wishing I were somewhere else but never actually getting dressed and going outside. I spent a month doing it... and the scary part is that I don't hate it. But I have made steps in getting out, and once I do I'll remember what its like to participate in the world.